Tears.

4 month check up... ok well it was SUPPOSED to be when he was 4 months old but since my dr was sick, it's really closer to 5 months old now...

He weighs an amazing 16lb 11oz and is 25 inches long...

That puts him in the 25% for height and 70% for weight.... so he's a mini chunky monkey-- whatever. I'm sure he'll catch up!! Or he can just stay small forever-- that'd be nice.

HE got his first shots today... there were lots of tears... from mommy, but he handled it ok. HE was already crying because he was tired, so I don't even think he noticed the shots... but he did get three bugs bunny band-aids, so I'm sure it all worked out for the better anyway ;)

I wonder if I'll ever stop feeling guilty and wondering if I made the right decision... I'll never forgive myself if something bad happens to him-- with his shots or without the shots... either way it's really a crap shoot.... AHHH so much to worry about....

i have so mnay pictures i want to post but no more photshop since my comptuer died. Yeah great... as if having the computer die wasn't enough now i gotta fork out the money for Photoshop since I can't use my old copy anymore. Too bad I don't have any takers on my offer to sell a kidney-- that'd give me the cash flow needed to get Photoshop back!!

I'm thinking that since Elijah is 5 months old now (well, almost) that it's time that he starts making a living and earning his keep. I think he should model. I mean afterall, he IS the most beautiful baby EVER. His dr even commented on how beautiful he was, and how gorgeous his skin is. She says I do a great job taking care of it. I know. I'm pretty much the bomb when it comes to taking care of Elijah. :) hahaha... ok maybe i fall a little short of the "Best Mom EVER" award, but I bet I could come in a close second at least :)

OK... so Elijah is making it clear that he wants food and he wants it NOW so we gotta go!!

Sometime when i get the whoel computer situation figured out I'll post a video of Elijah's first REAL food... it's funny :)

Love
Elijah and Mommy!